a poem for my dead dad

My father died 12 years ago this hour.

The rasping breath, as I left his hospital bed,

Lasted a few minutes more.

There was still hope, I said from denial,

Til I took the call, barely home at all;

Numb in the car, back to the ward we filed.

His body sunken, his eyes gone out,

I silently sat and swayed with his corpse.

This mighty man, reduced to nul,

No more jokes, his life force culled.

Was his soul in the room that night,

swirling round, down my right side,

as I sat with pleas, just one more day

so I could whisper what I needed to say?

His body may have gone and snuffed it

But I clung to his essence and absorbed its toughness.

That’s why, 12 years on, I’m still not ‘over it’,

Still not knowing what splits life and death,

apart from a beat, a spark, a breath.

2 thoughts on “a poem for my dead dad

  1. So beautiful, though full of sorrow. I remember not being there when my infant son left us. Just not being there is itself that much more painful. Thank you for sharing that pain for all of us who can deeply relate.

  2. I’m sorry to hear about your baby son. Thank you for taking the time to read my poem, which spilled out from my heart. Words help to some extent – but the pain never truly goes away.

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